Changes, Family and Stress

Holy moley!!!  It’s been a long long long time since I’ve been here!  This is why I don’t have a set following!  Because I run off to often and forget to write anything down!

Lots has happened in that past few months!  I got a job at the local Buffalo Wild Wings!  I’m a server there, and I work part time at night.  Hubby got switched to 1st shift so he is here with the kids at night now while I work.  It’s nice having a job I don’t really “need” as much as I want my own money.  I enjoy the freedom to give shifts away if I don’t want to go in or if something comes up.  I’ve been working there since the end of February and so far things are great!

The brats just finished school today, so now I am the mother of 2nd and 8th graders… That means my oldest is almost in high school!!!!  One more year and he will be a freshman!  It’s honestly terrifying.  He’s only 12 (started school early) and he is going to be in the 8th grade!

I also just got 2 new tattoos!!  I got my Princess Zelda finished on my back and I got my chest piece started.  I love love love them both and I am getting some color done on my chest tomorrow.  I will post pictures once it is finished.  I’ll make a collage of all of my ink for you all to see!  I have 5 now.

Well, it’s almost time for movie night with the kiddos!  I’ll start writing more, I promise!!!

Love you all!!!

Crazy Busy!!!

Holy shit!  It’s been a crazy couple weeks!  My mother in-law got all of us different “memories” for Christmas last year.  She got my daughter tickets to Frozen on Ice and my husband, son and I tickets (and a room) for Great Wolf Lodge!

Sis’s Frozen trip was AH-MAAZING! according to her.  She went with my mother in-law and our cousin up to Cleveland to see her fave princess ice skate with Olaf.  She got to spend the night with Gramma the Friday before and then again on Saturday, so she was stoked to say the least!  She even talked Gramma into buying her a $15 snow cone in Olaf’s head…lol   They are still doing shows until March 15th, so if you wanna get a special kid in your life tickets, go here!  You can get tickets close to where you are.

Great Wolf Lodge was so awesome.  The lodge is a huge indoor water park attached to a hotel.  They also have tons of stuff to do inside the hotel as well as swimming like an arcade, a mini-gym, a kid day spa, a couple fine dining restaurants, and a gift shop of course.  If you’re interested in more info, you can visit their website here.  It’s actually somewhat affordable too!  You buy the room and the pool passes come with it for the day of check-in and the entire next day.  We checked in at 4ish pm and we left around 2pm they following day and all the kids with us had a blast.  I don’t know if any of you have ever experienced swimming in January, but if not, I highly recommend it!  It was so strange to be in a bathing suit and looking at snow outside on the ground.  We went with the whole family, Myself, Heath, Jaden and Emma as well as Mom and dad in-law, sister and brother in-law and their baby, our cousin and one of her friends and both my kids brought friends too!  So there were 13 of us total in 3 hotel rooms!  Thankfully they had huge awesome beds and a hida-bed couch.  The beds at that place were like sleeping on clouds!  They were so so soft and it felt like they hugged you when you laid down in them.

On a more personal note, I am looking into being a Beachbody Coach!  It is an online business opportunity that I would do from my own website as well as Facebook and this blog.  I’ve been researching information about that lately as well!  I’ll let ya know how it turns out!

Great Wolf Lodge

Tomorrow my family and I are going to Great Wolf Lodge with my in-law’s! My mother and father in-law and my sister and brother in-law are coming with their baby.  Both of my kids are taking a friend and we are taking our cousin as a babysitter.

So, my dilemma would be the bathing suit.  This is an indoor water park and I haven’t been in a bathing suit in a VERY long time.  At least not comfortably.  I’m gonna have to just suck it up and do it though because I am not passing up on these water slides!

Ahh!!  Vacation!!!



This is my official ‘before’ picture. I can’t believe I’m posting this. Anyway, as of January 16th, 2015 I am officially beginning my journey.

My goal is 45 pounds less than I am now. I could use all the support I can get!

Busy new year!!

So its been a crazy crazy new year so far! Today was day 7 of my #30datsofyoga and let me say, its kicking my ass! However positive things are happening because of it, my daughter has started wanting to do yoga every night and I’ve lost a few pounds and a few inches!! I feel stronger and just at peace with myself. I’ve found my calling! I love yoga!!!

30 Days of Yoga

Part of my New Years Resolution is to be healthier.  To help achieve this, I’ve started Yoga!!!  My favorite Yoga Teacher, Adriene, just happens to be doing 30 days of yoga in January!  Today is day 2 (Jan. 1st was an intro video) and I can definitely feel the burn!  I urge anyone who is even thinking of beginning yoga to check out Yoga with Adriene on Youtube here and check out her personal website here.  She has a whole series of beginners yoga as well as a fundamentals series!

Go!  Go check her out!!!


Happy New Year!!! (and Merry Christmas..again)

Well, it’s 2015 already and I am ready for it.  Hubby and I discussed our New Year resolutions this afternoon on our way to Christmas at his Aunt’s house. After recent events, we’ve decided our resolutions for 2015 should be Honesty and Loyalty.  I also want to eat and be healthier in general.

It’s late.  I’ll say more tomorrow 🙂

Merry Christmas (2 days late?)

Christmas day was crazy (as usual) so I didn’t have time to even log in, let alone write.  We woke up around 7:30ish and the kids opened their Santa presents then we headed to Gramma’s to have breakfast (homemade Sausage Gravy :D) and open more presents.  After that we made the long trek to my parent’s house where the magic of Christmas is alive and well.

We all had great Christmas’s!  And in regards to my “Dear Santa” post, I got my answer 🙂  In a shadow box framed picture of my husband and I on our wedding day.  It reminded me of where we came from and I love it 🙂

Christmas Eve – 20 years ago…

For the 2nd of the 3 Christmas Memories posts I’m gonna talk about Christmas Eve when I was a little girl.  Growing up we did the majority of our holiday celebrations on the night of Christmas Eve.  My parents would load all the presents into the car and we would begin our journey for the night.  We would always start at my grandma’s house.

Everyone in the family was there from my mom’s side.  My aunts, uncles, cousins, everyone!  We would all show up around 6:30ish and have a big dinner together.  My grandma was the best cook ever and she outdid herself every single year.  After dinner, we would open up our gifts.  This was always my favorite part, I got to play Santa and hand out all the gifts and then we all tore into them!  There was no order to this madness, it was a tornado of wrapping paper and shouted ‘Thank you’s’ until everyone was done.  One specific year I remember we played a game and my little cousin won.  My St. Bernard had just had puppies and I told him he won one of the puppies!  He was so excited that his parents couldn’t tell him no, so the day after Christmas they showed up at our house to pick out their puppy.  His dad was not happy with me for a while but he ended up loving that dog more than anything so it all worked out.

After we opened the gifts there, we would load them back into the car, opened this time, and head to my other grandma’s house.  Again, the entire family was there, except it was my dad’s side of the family.  Let me just say, my dad’s family is nuts.  They are so much fun and there was never a dull moment to be had as long as they were around.  Since we had just eaten dinner, we just opened presents at her house.  We would laugh and play games and just have a great time together.  We usually didn’t leave until well after 10 or 11 at night but that didn’t stop us from continuing our Christmas Eve festivities.

After we left grandma #2’s house we would go back home and open our own presents.  Just my mom, dad and I.  Even though there was only 3 of us it would still take a good hour or 2 for us to open everything.  I got mountains of gifts, looking back on it I believe it was a bit overkill and I’m hoping I don’t spoil my kids the same way I was spoiled.  Anyway, we would actually take turns at home so we could all see what we all got.  Once the gifts were open my parents would shuffle me off to bed so Santa could come and leave me even more presents.  It was always hard to fall asleep on Christmas Eve because I was so excited!!!  I tried to stay awake and listen for sleigh bells or hoof steps on the roof but after the long night running around and opening all those gifts, I was beat.  We would put out the cookies and milk (and carrots for the reindeer) and then snuggle up in my bed and I was usually asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

I try to have Christmas Eve traditions for my own family now.  One that we used to do was read “T’was the Night Before Christmas” before bed but now that my kids are getting older we don’t do it as a family anymore.  Instead I read it to our daughter as her bedtime story.  We always watch “A Christmas Story” on TV and we set out the cookies and milk for Santa.  Sometimes we do carrots, sometimes we don’t.  Every year but this one we have made Reindeer Food to lay out in the yard so the reindeer know where to land.  This year it totally slipped my mind to get glitter, so it didn’t happen.  Nobody said anything about it, so I didn’t mention it either.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day for us.  We are driving 3 hours (one way) to see my family for Christmas and having breakfast with the in-laws before that.  Merry Christmas everyone!

Dear Santa

Dear Santa,

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face.  I seem to most mornings until I remember the everyday struggle I am having within my own soul.  I know we said “A new beginning” but it doesn’t feel that way anymore.  It did, the first week after Dday was absolutely amazing!  We reconnected, we had fun together, we talked, we laughed, we did other adult activities… however it’s slipping.  I can feel him drifting away, I can feel myself drifting away.  I’m bitter after what we’ve been through, I don’t trust anyone with a vagina (except a couple close friends) and it’s making me a very angry person.

This year for Christmas if I could have just one thing, I would ask for inner peace and the clarity to see what I need to do.  Let me glimpse into the future for a hint maybe or a sign.  Let me see what is going to become of the relationship I am trying to save.  Are we wasting our time fighting the inevitable?  So Santa, this year when you fill the stockings and put presents under our tree, please leave a little something special for me.


Kelby J